I absolutely hate being confused. I started going out with allen, seemed like a good idea since we were best friends and i was completely enthralled with him before.....I can't stand it tho. Hes obsessed with me....like in love with me. i hate it so much, i hate being around him...it just makes me sick. I have no idea what im going to do though...it sucks ass.
I kno i still love jack...and i can't get that fact out of my mind..even tho nothing will EVER come of it again. ive been thinking of matt again...and then i had that dream last nite ..and saw the matt look alike at TU. Its just freaky i think, some kind of sign. I want that kind of love back...so badly...ugh...I want to be able to give my whole heart and love someone entirely....will i ever fall in love again?