Wow its been awhile since i've written. I broke up with allen on the 19, eek our one month. It was so much harder than i thought. We both cried but it was good, i guess he understood that i cant love me like i should, im not over matt and jason. I dont know why im holding on so hard. I kno nothing will ever come of it. Anywayz Spring break was pretty awesome
Monday: Sat around the house and then went to the Mest concert with Shay. It was really cool altho i didn't really care to see Fall out boy and that other bad. Matchbook Romance and Mest kicked ass!! And i got to see some really hot punk guys, i knew britt would of loVed it..haha
Tuesday i didn't really do anything i dont think
Wednesday: Me and Allison went to Wild Adventures. I haven't hung out with her in forever. It was pretty cool to hang out and talk about old times.
Thursday: Me and Megan were supposed to go to the beach but it was too cold :'(. So we went to Tally ho for the day. We shoped and then went to see 50 first dates which was quite good. haha Megan got this fake tan and i was blown away by how quickly it came on. Hella funny for sure! Then on the way back we saw these guys and called them. They seemed alright...ahh motocross guys are Hott!
Friday i didn't do shit..i think i did a little work around the house. i saw allen for like 30 minutes and then i went to go see someone i haven't seen in awhile. :)
Saturday: O gosh this nite was surely the biggest kick in the ass. OK so allen now knows that us being together as more than friends is pretty much not in the question for awhile. I hate knowing i hurt him so much. Hes my best friend, part of me wishes it was all like before. Altho i kno he wouldn't understand. Things were simpler then. geeez! So allison and me went to meet the motocross dudes. Hell yea they were hot..hot yankees..ugh..lol.We went out to eat andwent back to the track. I had no idea that these guys would be so UGH. Hella kick in the ass..for those of you who know what im talking about. I have never been treated so badly in my entire life, then again..heh. But it was bad. It really makes you appreciate good guys.

Anywayz spring break is almost over and its back to school. i got like 6 weeks to bring up my grades. i so wish i could redo this year. My week was okay. I didn't get to hang out with britt. Its finally hit me that things are changing and theres nothing to be done about it this time. I guess ill have to let her move on. Shes got this guy tho. Im so excited for her. It seems like he really likes *her* She deserves someone good for her. I hope everything works out, i love her to much to let her be unhappy.

Proms coming up..im thinking of changing my date..hell idk.